Sunday, June 13, 2010


I always imagined having a house full of kids one day. I never expected there to be 15 years in between when I had my first child and when I had my second. Of course I didn't think it would take 2 marriages I also have a step-son but unfortunately he doesn't live with us. So now I am 38 years old and not sure if my body can handle another pregnancy, so I am thinking about adoption.
I was checking out some sites where children are waiting for adoption here locally. I noticed there are a lot of siblings waiting to be adopted by a single family. That is when I realized that maybe I am supposed to adopt a set of siblings instead of just one child. My dream would then come true and hopefully their dream would come true too.
I am aware of the fact that I have many obstacles to overcome before I could do that, and that is a bit frustrating, but I am determined! I figured once my 19 yr old moves out I would gain an extra room, and if there was a boy he could share a room with Logan even. Unless of course the housing market decided to change and we could get a bigger house. There is the adoption cost that would need to be considered, but I have been in debt before, so that doesn't seem like a deal
I am a planner, and even though the hubby wants to wait until the oldest moves out before looking into this option, I decided I needed to satisfy my desire by researching it as much as possible before then. So I would love it if anyone who has gone through the adoption process would send me some links or additional information. Wish me luck!

Friday, June 11, 2010

Guilt Free and Loving It!

I used to put so much pressure on myself to be the best Mom ever, like all of us mothers do. I always felt I came up short because I worked a full time job. Then in the last 3 months I have decided I am probably better than I give myself credit for. Not that I am bragging or placing myself upon a pedestal. I just think I devote more time to my kids while working then I might if I was home all day with them. I think having the "ME" time makes me more focused.

I get to challenge my mind mentally and socialize with my co-workers on a daily basis. This is what I consider "ME" time. Then when 5:30pm rolls around, I switch to mommy mode! During Mommy mode I get to arrive home and give him his 20 minutes of totally mommy time before dinner. We all sit down for dinner together and share our day's activities with each other. (how many families do that anymore?) After dinner we get dishes done then we head outside! It is this time that I look forward to. We talk about the garden and how it is changing, we chase lizards and frogs, and spray each other with the garden hose. Our night usually winds down with a wrestling match with Dad, bath time, and then cuddle time on the couch with 30 minutes of TV time. Then begins our one-on-one bedtime story telling and crazy conversations. Might not seem like a lot to some, but how many stay at home Moms have the time to do that everyday?

I thought all families do this. I thought all families eat dinner together and play outside with their kids and constantly think about the next best activity to do with them. But I am finding out that I may actually be an exception. I stay up until 1am every night so I can get my housework done and grocery shopping accomplished without taking away from my time with the children - I thought this was normal?? After some inquiring I did with other working and non-working Moms - this is definitely not The best part of this is that it works for me! - and I am finally okay with where I am and satisfied with how I decided to be a Mommy :)

Back on Track!

I am back...Finally!
I have been so side-tracked with camping, working, and just being a busy Mom! I have decided that I really need to keep up with my blog, as a way to maybe clear my head.